Transformed by Grace

🤔 Let's Talk About Being Seen I saw a post recently [1] that hit me right in the soul, and I bet it will resonate with many of you. It gets right to the heart of what it means to be fully loved by God. I've slightly rephrased it to focus on the elements that resonated most deeply with me: “What terrifies me is not His seeing but His refusal to look away. Every corner of my soul, even the ones I fear is unlovable, is held in His Mercy. This is the scandal of Grace, His perfect knowledge did not produce rejection, it produced pursuit. He saw the sinner I am and stayed!” Wow. Just read that last line again: "He saw the sinner I am and stayed!" It is a terrifying thought, isn't it? To be completely naked before the eternal, complete, and unblinking knowledge of God. He doesn't see the carefully curated version of you, the one you show at Mass, or on your resume, or even to your spouse.  He sees:  * The prideful thought you had this morning.  * The excuse you mad...

Last November, I felt a deep call: to step away from secular music and movies. By God’s Grace, I did it.  But this past May, I hit a low point, and the noise started creeping back in. Suprprisingly it wasnt the old addiction of Hindi/Tamil series or songs but a new one - Kdrama.  I used to justify it with a mantra: 𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥. 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐍𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. It’s not a sin. I am not really going back to the old ways. But every time I indulged, the feeling was the same: I felt a little more tired. A little more disoriented. A little more… leaked. It wasn't guilt or morality that weighed me down. It was something far deeper: The loss of connection with the Divine. The quiet whisper you can only hear when you stop drowning it out. The Truth About the Exchange Addiction or habitual indulgence isn't just a transaction (I give time, I get entertainment). It’s an exchange of Attention, Emotion and Energy. When that exchange isn't aligned with your calling, you don't j...

My friends, have you ever felt it? That familiar sinking feeling when life throws a storm your way. A medical diagnosis, a sudden job loss, a broken relationship, or something else that feels like the waves are crashing over the sides of your boat, and you’re sure you’re going under. And in those moments, if we're honest with ourselves, a foolish question often bubbles up in our hearts: “Where is God in all of this?” We let the darkness of this one night eclipse every sunrise he's ever painted for us. In that moment we forget all incidents of His Faithfulness and Miracles.  I was recently reflecting on one such incident in the Gospel, the story of Jesus walking on water. We know it well. The disciples are in a boat, a fierce wind is blowing, and they’re straining against the oars. They’re terrified as they see a figure walking toward them on the water, and they scream, convinced it’s a ghost. Jesus, with his characteristic calm, says, “Take heart, it is I; have no fear” (Mark 6...

Sometimes faith gets tested not in the big, dramatic moments — but in the quiet, personal battles of our everyday lives. For me, this season has been one of those journey that’s both physical and deeply spiritual. I’m currently trying for a VBAC and it’s been quite a journey. Honestly, a tricky one. With gestational diabetes, my sugar levels have been unpredictable. Despite the medicines, I’ve now been started on insulin. I need to keep the baby’s weight in check to increase the chances of a normal delivery, but there are days I just feel unsure — one moment I’m confident, the next I’m wondering if it would really work out. Along with multiple prayers I’ve also read many stories of successful VBACs, even in situations that seemed nearly impossible. Thanks to Anupama Vrisham's classes and some inspiring Instagram testimonials, I’ve found hope when I needed it most. Yesterday, I randomly searched for “Christian VBAC stories,” and one heading immediately caught my eye: “What My F...